Monday, January 17, 2005

So, yea, I'm back at school after a very restful, but, not quite peaceful break. I've moved in with a new roommate and i think it's going to go pretty well. i've been talking with this guy who i met on this christian retreat and i really like him. he's really cool and cute and polite and....well....he's great. only thing with him is that he's really hard to get in touch with. lol. but, i guess if that's the only real thing i have to worry about with him, i'm doing really well. lol. it sucks though, due to the fact that i CAN'T go out with him b/c of his situation with his parents and my situation with my parents. Um, the whole thing of not being out is NOT a good thing when trying to start a relationship. lol. So, yea, anyway, i'm going to get going. hopefully, i'll be able to update this a little more now that i'm at school again.

Monday, January 10, 2005

Just these massive dots

"When I was a little kid, I use to put my face right up to them, ya know, and I was just amazed, it was just these massive dots. I think life is like that sometimes. But, I like to think that from God's perspective, life, everything, even this...makes sense. It's not just dots. Instead, we're all, we're all connected, and it's beautiful and it's funny, and it's good. From this close, we can't expect it to make sense right now."
----Steve Sandvoss in "Latter Days"

You know, besides being a really good movie, this quote really got to me. I don't know what it was. Here is this Mormom missionary talking with a woman who just had to pull the plug on one of her closest companions and I find myself rewinding it over and over again. Maybe it's because of all the things that have been going on lately. My grandmother isn't doing very well and is basically surviving on life support. My car was totaled. I ended a friendship. Everything just seemed like a bunch of massive dots. I've had these type of situations before and somehow, miraculously, it always works out, in some way, good or bad, it works out, and everything seems connected.